Lacey Baker

can somebody preeettyy preeeetyyy please teach me how to skate again :( i lost everything

Heartbeat

all i ever wanted was to be in of your heart,
never apart.

I would love for him to just sit beside me all day long.
I would love for him to sweep my fringe off my eye and hold me tight.
I would love for him to be brave enough to tell me he loves me.

I wish he knew by now that all I want is him.
I just want him to know that I love him.
More than i could to any other.
I want him close by me.
I want to lay down on his chest so I can hear his heartbeat.
I want his arms to wrap around me in the cold winter.

i love you dear.

please stay near.

Look What You've Done

I think i've made a terrible mistake.

i might have fallen in love way too soon.

im sorry. i didnt mean to.
somethings wrong.
i know.
you deserve someone better than me,
thats for sure.

yes, i do love you.
but not enough for you to sweep me off my feet.

its always about your friends isnt it ?
they tell u this.
they tell u that.

but do you ever believe the stories i tell u?

I Thought They Hated You

question of the day :

have you ever felt like you were used by a bigger authority and that you have been tricked into doing something u think u love but u dont get any benefit out of it ?

YES EXACTLY !

3 years, and all i get is total shit. why ?

i think i have a right to say, and decide whats best for me . thanks for the advice, i shall take into consideration.

why the fuck would i want to stay in that hell hole, where i feel like a hypocrite, and most of the people there despise me. and talk shit about me everyday behind my back (like i dont know)

deyyy HELLO ! i want to be in a place where i feel comfortable, and not pulled back so much so i dont even know the hell i am anymore.

"HAAAH DIA TU, DAH LA TAK PAKAI TUDUNG, PERANGAI CAM HAPA JA LAGI. TAK DAK AJARAN AGAMA LANGSUNG."

see what i dont get is why their mind sets have to be so redundant.

1. kenapa orang yg tak pakai tudung selalu kena label "the wild one"
2.orang sedaq tk yg sebenaqnya bkn suma org yg pakai tudung tu alim/warak like most people think. as an adolescent, i think i know whats happening about these other adolescence more.



i dont know who else to speak to about this. this situation is killing me. PMR was over yesterday. and now i got another problem stacked on back. DUMB !


baru ja ingat nak rilek tkmau ada masalah, then this comes !

god help me. i need your guidance.

Insisting The Existing

yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :D

eventhough i think i didnt do really well.
i'll just worry next month !

now lets paaaarrtaaayyyyyyyy :D :D :D

Hello Friend (s)

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing with the one thing that brings light to all my darkness.You're my best friend and I love you, Yes I do.There is no other one who can take your place.I feel happy inside when I see your face.I hope you believe me.'Cause I speak sincerely.and I mean it when I tell you that I need you

Nocturnal Behaviour.

Question of the day :

DO FRIENDS REALLY TELL YOU EVERYTHING ? DO FRIENDS HIDE SOME THINGS FROM ANOTHER FRIEND ? DO YOU EVER FEEL LEFT OUT IN A GROUP OF FRIENDS ?

ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO BE PART,

NEVER ALONE OR LEFT OUT,

THERE WAS A TIME OF LIFE WHEN I FELT APPRICIATED,

APPRICIATED NO MORE AS YOU HAVE SAID

Patriotisme or Humiliation

I spent the whole day today trying to find the real meaning of MERDEKA. We learnt about it in Form 3 Sejarah and we all know what merdeka is. On the surface, Merdeka means the independence of Malaya from British in the year 1957.

But as a Malaysian, do we know the real meaning of Merdeka? Do we know how much our forefathers had to go through to achieve this freedom we have now? Do we even care or want to care on how we should keep our country at peace so the past wont haunt us again.

Today while i was out, I saw a group of youngsters on motorcycles. With no intention to label anyone, my sister and I were embarrassed to see these youngsters or "rempits" roaming the city with the Jalur Gemilang on their back and cigarettes in their mouths. Its the fasting month. Did they feel no shame to go around on their bikes and humiliate their race and religion. As a Melayu i felt shameful for them. If this is their way of showing patriotism, might as well not show it at all.

Yes, i'm not the most perfect Malay in the world, nor am I the best Muslim, but i know where to cross the line. If I was a foreigner and saw that, I would question this country. Question its integrity and harmony. These people are putting other people's lives in danger. If you want to go on and die in the name of your motorcycle, go ahead without further a due, but other people want to live the lives God gave them.

I'm here just to point out that young Malaysians these days need to understand that Merdeka isnt just a game. The struggle and hustle that Tunku Abdul Rahman, Dato Onn Jaafar and Tok Janggut had to go through to protect this nation from communists and British. From the Japanese to the British. For over 500 years our country was colonized. And for over 52 years we have achieved independence. I still question whether to be a Malaysian is to just live here, or to know the real meaning of Merdeka itself, and proudly answer foreigners on how we have achieved what we have today. And to be even more proud to call ourselves Malaysians.


Truly,
A Malaysian

Thank You, Love

Thanks For The Hug Fathin!
i love you so so so much i would go through all the pain and suffering just to see you smile. i would jump an ocean full of sharks to hear you laugh. i would rather die than loose your love :D

I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.

Time, Why Do You Fly So Fast?

Here I am posting another blog,not realising that time is breathing down my neck!

The thing is, i just can't seem to digest the fact that its already frigging august/September. WTH! PMR is in October you know. FRIGGING OCTOBER. Which is like, 43 DAYS FROM NOW. dammit. I still remember my first day of form 1 in Ibrahim. OOO those were the days. People started hating me already! HAHA. whatever.

Yes, im not gonna swear*i hope* since its the fasting month. :D

I'd like to say sorry to whoever that i have hurt, in the past, now by this post, and in the future. Eventhough it's not Eidulfitr yet, but who cares. :) HAHA.

Back to PMR. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA PMR! Why PMR? WHY? Why do you even exist? I mean, I can understand SPM. But what are you here for? What are you really here for? You should get a life you know, stop burdening all these teenagers. They want a life too. Not filled by all your syllabuses and calculations and formulas.

Gosh, i dont even know why im complaining. Maybe because im not one of those excel students in school where they get all the credit, even for something they didnt do. *groans* But they should get the credit right? Should they? NO! Yes? erghh i dont know. Never knew what it feels like to be one of those students. Im always being pushed and mocked by the teachers. Never the one to compare to. Maybe because i keep on writing on my blog. Who knows? Maybe they just hate me for some reason. If i wasn't who i am, i would really just........ *its the fasting month*

But, i really respect my besties. Eventhough they are who they are, they're really really smart. Like, how the hell do you guys study? Dammit man. I wish i could be like you guys. Im the only outcast. Like the only who doesnt get straight a's in the group. I gotta keep up with them. Peer pressure kills me. Its like my worst nightmare. I wish there was no peer pressure. I wish peer pressure didnt exist like PMR. But i think for some reason peer pressure has a good side. It gives you this competetive edge. To me of course, this competetive edge is on its surface. It floats, and never sinks.

Well whatever it is, I just want it all over and done with. I'll study as hard as i can. I'll try my best *sounds so cheesy when i say it* and work my a** off :D

Cheers for now

Then I Realised..

Trials is overrrr.wohoooooo! :D


tapi baru trialsja. tak PMR lg. damn.
i've got so much more to revise. and PMR is just like, 2 months from now. i really need to start working my ass off.

I just realised that i sucked my trials. it was shit. i didnt know anything. "yang ni kot jawapan dia."
"errrr, maybe this one. eh tak tak tak mungkin"

ERRRGGGHHHH. MUST STUDY EZA! MUST STUDY!


i need to prove to everyone that i actually can do it. i can if i try. ni effort pon tadak nak redha apa kejadahnya.

Kugan keeps on saying that im not gonna straight a's bla bla, thanks for boosting up my confidence kugan *rolls eyes*

bulan puasa ni, kena studyyyyy. kena rajen sikit. bulan puasa kan bulan paling mulia dan penghulu bagi segala bulan sepanjang tahun(soalan pmr ni)
haha. so i gotta start working mannn. PMR PMR PMR :D




p/s: happy bdae kak jum! we celebrated yesterday. me,atirah,azdi n atilia waited for her to come back. tunggu la kat toilet tu (tak plan pon kata nk tunggu dia. tiba2 nampak keta dia mai). semua serbu keta diaaa "HAPPY BDAE TO U,HAPPY BDAE TO U, HAPPY BDAE TO CKG JUM,HAPPY BDAE TO U" hehe, best kan best kan. then nad,fathin n amira n the whole form 3 block p nyanyi utk dia from our block boleh dgq smpai bilik guru. sweeeet kan kami ni. :D haha staiii. again happy bdae ckg, i pray for u n all ur happiness(bg la markah lebih sket utk trials) :D

Sadis

Terlalu Sadis Caramu
Menjadikan Diriku
Pelampiasan Cintamu
Agar Dia Kembali Padamu
Tanpa Perduli Sakitnya Aku

Tega Nian Nya Caramu
Menyingkirkan Diriku
Dari Percintaan Ini
Agar Dia Kembali Padamu
Tanpa Perduli Sakitnya Aku

Semoga Tuhan Membalas Semua Yang Terjadi
Kepadaku Suatu Saat Nanti
Hingga Kau Sadari Sesungguhnya Yang Kau Punya
Hanya Aku Tempatmu Kembali
Sebagai Cintamu

Hanya Aku Tempat Mu Kembali

Semoga Tuhan Membalas Semua Yang Terjadi
Kepadaku Suatu Saat Nanti
Hingga Kau Sadari Sesungguhnya Yang Kau Punya
Hanya Aku Tempatmu Kembali
Sebagai Cintamu

Hingga Kau Sadari Sesungguhnya Yang Kau Punya
Hanya Aku Ooo...
Sebagai Cintamu

Regret Never Comes Along With Guilt

Remorse.

I didnt mean to do this to you. I never thought you'd take it so seriously. I love you and you know it. But to me reality is never sweet. Im sorry and i really mean this. I didnt want to it, but i had to so you can see it.

How am i supposed to react to this situation?

your my best friend and i hope you understand. This situation im in doesnt seem to stand. Me and him are more than friends. And reality bites, thats the end.

I feel guilty for doing this to you. Regret comes in once in a while to add more into. I wish you could see what i really feel. My days here are not long enough, so please stand near.


bukan aku sengaja melakukan ini, tapi aku terpaksa. bukan aku mahu, tapi aku tak mampu. :( im sorry dear love. i had to be the devil. i had to think of my own self.

entah, masih ada lagi perasaan begitu terhadapnya. begini cara aku melupakan dia. bukan aku memperalatkan dia. cuma untuk kebaikan aku, kau jadi mangsa.

Mengapa begitu kejam dunia ini?

percayalah, aku langsung tiada niat untuk menyakitkan kamu. Aku juga rasa bersalah. Aku rasa seperti diriku ini manusia paling keji di dunia ini. Mengapa? Mengapa begitu susah untuk aku kenal pasti sama ada kau benar menerima keadaan ini. Atau hanya tugas kau sebagai seorang teman untuk menerimanya.

Is this an obligation for you to accept this? I cant tell. Yes, your lips say your fine. But i never know whats in your heart.

So The Vampire Loved The Lamb

Last night..

1.45 A.M. 7th August 2009.
another date to remember :D

Lately This Feeling

This feeling i have inside me. My hands shaking and my knees numb. Sometimes makes me wanna cry.

Somethings wrong with me. It hurts sometimes. Throbbing at the end of my fingers. Through classes. I cant hold on to my pen. I drop it sometimes. Tears start pouring down. Why is this happening. Whats wrong with me. I try to pick up my pen. My hands are too shaky, i loose it again. Whats causing this to happen.


Im not laughing. I try to hide it from everyone. I try to smile. Theres a part of my heart saying i should let it go. My mind says i should keep it together.

Death Is Breathing Down My Neck.

I feel weak. Emotionless. Horrid. Heartbroken of course. I dont think im over him yet. I thought that this will all me in my past. But i saw that night. I couldnt stop myself. My heart was beating faster. He looked at me. Faster and faster it went. Why is this happening? Why?

The picture. He still keeps it with him. Why? I thought its all over.

In The Name Of A Great Filmmaker

Dear Yasmin Ahmad,

your the storyteller of the nation. your films touch my soul deeply and forever shall i keep them with me.

your films were the only malaysian films i could accept. because they tell the true tales of malaysia.

there will never be a replacement for you. as you are the only one to ever tell these tales of truth.

your films shall be a legacy and a story i shall tell my children of. thank you yasmin ahmad, for creating such films that opened my heart.


truly,
a fan of yours :D

A Shoulder To Cry On?

can somebody please answer this question for me.

who's shoulder's am i gonna cry on if i dont want to face the world?
who's shoulder's am i gonna cry on if there are no birds in the sky to sing to me?
who's shoulder's am i gonna cry on if i feel like the whole world is against me?
who's shoulder's am i gonna cry on if i feel like breaking down?

can somebody tell me what im supposed to do

if everytime i read shakespeare's i start crying?
if everytime i listen to a day to remember i start breaking down?
if everytime i see the flowers he gave me i feel like killing myself?
if everytime i write new songs,its for him alone?
if everytime i pluck my guitar is so that he can hear my solemn?

can anybody help if

i feel like running to the end of the world and screaming out his name?
i want dig into the earth so deep and bury all my memories?
i think of the clouds and the blues sky,the rose and the birds?


My broken heart cries as I wish you were still near,
all my wishes and dreams replaced with fear.
Fear that I'll never get you back,
trying to substitute the feelings we both lack.
I know in my heart, it's all true
and that's why I am left here truly blue.
Blue because I know the love I felt
and got in return is gone forever.. forever to burn.
Although we have both moved on, I still feel the pain,
the pain that will always remain...within me.

No Mi Confunda

no mi confunda por favor

my friends tell me to forget you,
but my hearts is still longing to be with you.

my friends tell me to not think about you,
but all i can do now is nothing besides that.

my friends say there's no use of hurting yourself,
but everything i was had everything to do with you.

my friends say you dont deserve me,
but all i want is you.

no mi confunda por favor mi amor. te amo, nunca olvidare lo, queiro estar con ustedes, prometo que nunca lastimo, por favor pardoname mi amor. te amo, te amo mi amor, te queiro para siempre.

Moving On

Im fighting back,
Im not gonna loose to you,
Im stronger than you are,
Im Eza,
And I dont cry over guys like you.

For You I'd Drink Poison

"Whats here? a cup clos'd in my true loves hand? poison i see hath been his timeless end. O churl, drunk all, and left no friendly drop to help me after? I will kiss thy lips.

This is my sheath, there rust and let me die. "

aaaah for you my love,
never shall it be in dispare,
shault forever i be there..

"Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see it in your eyes.
Your ready to break it.
Dont look away"

i lost you once,
i lost you twice,
i dont want to loose you again.
be mine dear love.
be mine forever.

time,
thats all i ask for,
let me explain,
just one more day.

i've been crying for too long,
my tears wont help,
my blood wont stop to shed.

please,
i love you,
hold me in your arms again.
and i'll never go away.

i love you ajmal, im sorry.

Why Now?

why now after everything was going so well?
why now after everything you said i took into heart?
why now when i thought we could have a future?
why now after 3 years?
why now when i love you?
why now when you love me too?
why now when everything seems to be just perfect for us?


i never knew you could be this harsh. i thought you loved me, i was never right i suppose. i love you from the very bottom of my heart. i thought i could trust you to keep my heart. i thought i could depend on through my solemn nights. i thought you were the one. i thought we were it. why? why now?

Because You Suck

HAHA YOU LOOK FAT! YOU LOOK FAT!

HAHA YOU LOOK UGLY! YOU LOOK LIKE SHIT!

HAHA I SO HATE YOU NOW! YOU ARE SO MISSING OUT!

Parasites

I think its a new growth,
a new addiction,
a new parasite.

Maybe not a parasite,
maybe more of a passion,
yes a new passion.

We won states. YES WE WON STATES.

thanks kugan,patricia,adrian and syamel for believing in me. i love you guys for the rest of life

Anticipation

i dont like this feeling.
i dont like this feeling and the way its making me feel.
i dont like this feeling and the way its making me feel towards distress.

i feel like a creep,
a useless creep,
i want to feel special,
but i dont belong anywhere near them.

i want this pressure to stop pressuring me.
i want this feeling to stop making me feel this way.

i know im not what you wanted me to be.
but blame yourself,
you made me this way.
i could change myself,
but its hard.

i know im not the best,
im trying.
im trying to make you proud of me.
im trying to make other people proud of me,
not because of you,
not because of your name,
not because of your title,
or your post.

what the hell am i doing.

i cant lie to myself.
i dont like it at all.
im just trying to satisfy you.
but i just want to be me

yes it happened

4 months,exactly 4 months ;)

well minus the break up, its been 3 years,exactly 3 years.

i love you ajmal. thanks for being there for me. ;)

Could I Care Less

and so the story goes. BLA BLA BLA. the hell? do i look like i care? excuse me little muffins, i've got a better life now,so thanks for moving ;)

i've got better things to do, than go all gugu gaga over you

and please dont interfere little one,u dont know what i have to go through, so dont act like u know everything abt me,u dont.

betrayed,lied to,ripped of, and backstabbed. showed me what life is. Thanks God for showing me the real her. ALHAMDULILLAH. ;)

and yes to you it might not be your fault. but the coin has two different sides my dear. never the same. nothing i said was never good enough, and everything u did was any better. ;)

The Reality Of The Situation

As i was strolling through my myspace, i came across a bulletin posted by a friend. I was caught by the title Indonesians, Perhaps? As i was reading along, this popped up, http://www.myspace.com/pasukanantimalingsia.



Now, from my point of view as a Malaysian, this is heartbreaking. The Indonesians come to our country,wether legally or illegally, to look for a descent job.



And what really confuses me is that these people are pissed off basically because Malaysians call them "INDON". They come to our country, causing havocs and chaos, and yet the government still alows them to stay here. I dont know if Malaysians have caused as much havoc over there as much as they have over here,but rasionally, is this what Malaysia gets for giving your people job vacancies and such.

Now to the reality of the situation, what if, Malaysia rejects Indonesians to stay here. Would they be living a high life as they are now? I thought that Malaysia and Indonesia were working together. I guess i thought wrong.

Even by the posts on their myspace, discriminating the one and only country i love, doenst mean i am Anti-Indonesia. I do not step on your flag. I do no burn it either. I do not make a myspace account on how we should be Anti-Indo. As adults, mature adults, cant this be settled in a proper manner? cant this be solved in a humane way.

Im only 15, and eventhough i do not know properly how to, at least the adults should. I dont have enough authority or rights to go againts your country. I do not humiliate you nor do I despise of you. But you have caused riots.

I am sorry if anyone is hurt by the posting of this blog, i just feel that some of the adults should act wisely and more mature, in a proper manner. Not by naming names, and vulgar words.

Thank You,
A Malaysian


ONE MALAYSIA

I've Got A Girl Guide Spirit.

Another perfect day spent with the sunshines of my life. ;) Thanks to them i feel fine already. hehehe. i love you guys.

<3atirah,atilia,azdi,ellisya,nad,amira,fathin

Friendship Means Forever

forever,eventhough if its just a while ;)
fathin,nad.
Ellisya,Azdi,Atirah,Atilia.

I never thought I'd find a friendship like this. They're my sun in the daylight, and my stars in the night's sky. No words can express how happy i am when they're around. Without them there to help me, God knows where or how i'd be right now.

People say friendship forever is never perfectly defined. But what i think, friendship forever is the perfect definition of life.I know that i can be the best with them around to support. And i know that i'll ALWAYS be with them, no matter where i am. And even one day if im gone, i'll still be there for them.

When the rain starts blowing in your hair,
And im not there beside you,
ignore the wind thats trying to tell,
tell you that i'll be leaving.

Without you realizing,
A few months left to spend,
Those few months I will cherish,
Till the end.

One day when i'm gone,
promise me to stop loving me,
for I am not worthy.
These words will continue to stay on my lips,
I Love You Guys,
Thanks for it.

Sayang-sayang sama Atirah, Azdiyanah, Atilia, Fathin Addina, Nadhirah, Amira, Ellisya ;)

Now I Understand

Special For The One I Love, Amin Ajmal. :)

Your just like a star in the sky,
Your like a drug to my pain,
Your like a song in my heart,
Your like the strings on my guitar.

I love the way you laugh on a joke,
I love the way u smile to for me to see,
I love the way you push your glasses,
I love the way you try to please me.

Let me hold you for one time,
Let me touch you before i die,
Let me look into your eyes,
Let me listen to your broken voice.

The sun sets again,
And your name is calling,
Come and shed some light on my darkest nights,
I love you and I trust you.

I've never felt more in love with any other man but you, no words can express how deep it is. I feel secure when im around you, and i feel closer everytime i see you. I love you Amin, i really do. :)

Wondergirls!! Thanks To Atirah Gay ;)

Special thanks to Atirah Gay kerana telah memperkenalkan group ini pada aku. Mereka Wonder Girls ! They are the bestest korean group i've seen. I've fallen in love with them. Thanks Atirah kerana hang lah aku jadi gila kat depa. hahahha ;)


ni video first yang membuatkan aku jatuh cinta pada Wonder Girls ! The song's called Nobody , and is the bestest dance routine ever. *ya,aku dah hafal dance ni* hahahaha.



Sunye, AKU PUNYA OKE! i've fallen in love with her. Her voice, Her looks, and of course her oh so to die for body. ;) Nak jumpa sangat sangat sangat. gila babi gila aku kat dia ni. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SUNYE! I LOVE YOU! ;)) hehhe.

It Hurts To Hate You, I Love You

You'd always ask me,
how come you never say I love you?
do you really love me?

But you know,
I wanted something more sweeter,
I want to confess to you just like those lovers from movies, so that you wont forget

Ive waited for the white snow
Ill confess to you now, the words Ive held back

I love you
your smile brighter than the sunset
your two hands that embraced me
I love you, I love you

I promise that I will never leave you
I will always tell it to you face-to-face

You ask me whats to hesitate about,
is it that hard?
I want to hear what you got to say

But you know,
I wanted something more special,
I want a special day I can always remember, so that it wont pass forgotten

I dont want to separate with you
not even a single moment
when I lean on you, I hope the time will stop
I love you

I love you, I love you
loving you, loving you
I love you


im sorry i did it, but i was too much in love with you, i love you, and damn me for being it, i love you, and forever shall i hold to it.

Ya Allah, Bantulah Mereka.

Ya Allah, bantulah mereka ini. Hamba-hambaMu yang tidak berdosa. Selamatkanlah mereka dari segala keganasan dan kejahatan. Tingkatkanlah kesabaran mereka. Ya Allah Ya Tuhan, ramaikanlah pejuang-pejuang Islam, selamatkanlah masjid yang dibina Rasulullah itu. Hentikanlah keganasan ini Ya Allah. Hentikanlah pembunuhan kanak-kanak dan wanita yang sedang diseksa ini. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

And Without Nothing More...

7.48 p.m, right after praying maghrib, then came a msg from azdi.

first msg
"Eza, hot news 4 u!"

second msg
"Azdi.bgtau eza aku nk cpl blik ngn dia.tp aku tk buley msg dia skang.sbb ada skupang ja g.haha.okey.bubye. ;)"

first reply
"WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

third msg
"awat? tak suka ka?"

second reply
"SUKA LAAA! gila bapak tekejut la!"

fourth msg
"hahahaha.aku forward ja msg yg dia bagi kat aku. aku tak tambah apa2.cuba hang call or msg dia tgk"

third reply
"kalau call dia takkan agkt.aku tau dia.urm.aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!fuck xcaya bai!"

mcm tu lah lebih kurang.

Alhamdulillah, tak sia2 aku berdoa mintak pada Allah untuk bukakan pintu hatinya. 4 bulan aku tunggu, dapat juga hasilnya. Ya Allah, terima kasih kerana menenemukan aku dgn dia. ;)

Amin,
thank you.
i love you.
;)

We Never Said What Was More

you caught my eyes when you walked out of that room.
i couldnt tell if this was something or nothing,
but at that time it didnt matter anyway.

i couldnt stand to be away from u anymore.
u never said oh,
we said never what was more.

how could u do this?
how could you do this to me?
these nights are getting stronger,
your eyes are getting darker,
how can u say this after all that we've been through.

amin i love you.
i cant forget you.
how could you do this.
how could you leave me like this.

amin i miss you.
and i cant stand to see you.
see you be away from me.