When She Sleeps Alone

When one wants to move on, but keeps running back, what is he to do?

He wants to forget her. But he cant. He wants to hold her again. He's like a puppet. Following everyone else. He wants to love her, but the others, the others just despise the thought. He wants to touch her skin again. His friends say forget her, he wants to but he cant. He knows she's no good for him, but he knows he's the best. Everything she's asked him to do, he's done. He once wanted to give up on life, but he used her as a stepping stone, not that he meant to, but he had to.She was his savior. She was his life. His world revolved around her.

Others were waiting for him, others claimed they loved him more than anyone else. But it was he, he was too much in love with her to go to someone else. He was too much into her to even look at anyone else. He remembered the time she laid on his lap, oh how he wanted more. In his mind all he could think of was the smooth touch of her skin. Her hair, and her eyes. He couldn't forget her smile. That sweet smile. The smile that made him fall for her. Every single time he saw her he felt like shouting his hearts out and telling her how much he loves her.

But God forbid, he knew it would never happen. He shouldnt have put his hopes up too high. He only has a few months more to live. He wants to let go of his life. He wants to lay rest asleep. He wants her to be happy with someone else, he knew they would never be together. Everytime she touched his hand, his heart would start beating faster. It couldnt stop running. Faster, faster, faster. Blood started pumping to his heart. Faster, faster, faster. He would slowly calm down.

He always had his poker face on. In front of everybody, including her. Whenever he felt hurt by her, she would never want her to know. She was too fragile.

And everytime she sleeps alone, he would always,always want to acompany her. Be by her side. And hope to die,die right there beside her. Feeling her heartbeat, as his slowly, starts to stop....

Kesempatan Kedua

She realised how much she misses him. She wouldn't move on without him, no, she couldn't.

But she had to be strong. She knew she'd never be back in his arms. She knew she had to stop fantasizing about being with him. again.

She had always wanted a future with him. She had never loved any other man as much as him. She thought he was the one. But no, she thought wrong.

"If he ever does decide to call me, i'd be grateful enough that he's still thinking of me. But he'd never. He's probably already deleted my number, and the memory of me." She couldn't even look at any other man. Her heart was stoned for him alone. Only he could please her. Eventhough he wasn't much of a charmer, but he charmed her enough just by staring into her eyes.

She thought, there was no point in going away, trying to forget him. But she had to, it wouldn't hurt to try now would it. But it would hurt even more to not be with him. Its hurting now. Its hurting deep.

She remembered the first time she fell in love with him. 3 years flew just like that. The first time they held hands. The first time they kissed. She never felt so much in love. She wanted it back. She wanted all of it back.

And eventhough she was to blame for the breakup, she never understood why. She was never as faithful. She denied every other feeling for any other soul. But nobody knew that, seeing as she was a riot. He was nothing like the guy he fell in love with anymore. He's changed, eversince, eversince god knows when.

All she wants is another chance. One last chance. She's made mistakes but nobodies perfect. She wants her baby back. She wants another kiss. She wants him

This Is What Happens When Stupidity Takes Over Maturity

hahahahahahah.yes yes i know. stupid much right. i was bored,it was 2 in the morning, and Kherpala took over my body. ;) oh and the reason why the vid was in black and white was because i am DARKER THAN THE DARTH VADER thanks to golf, so, i dont want to make it visible. hehehe. so well yeah, there ya go, i video of my stupidity and out-of-tune guitar and voice. yeah the guitar wasnt so loud cause its out of tune. and i look stupid,cause its not me, its KHERPALA ;) hahahha.

cheers.

Kherpala wants to say goodbye ;)

The Moon And I Tonight

this is me writing on the moon. yup. sarah remember when i said if only you could see the moon from where i am. this was what i was doing. i want you close by me. im not gonna pretend im alright, im alone tonight. without you i'll be miserable. but without you i'll be miserable at best.

Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face,
and the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
and there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
but I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
and on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
you ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
to make you feel my love

Nothing Hurts More

45 hours and 26 minutes left to see her smile.

the tears in her eyes gathered up. it killed me. my heart stopped for a moment. words cant describe how i felt. terkilan mungkin. diri terasa seperti ditikam beribu kali. then i thought to myself. should i tell her? should she know? the hour glass is slowly getting emptier. time is running out. she's going, yes she is. this heart of stone will sing till it dies, but she's still going. amazed at how,somehow, her lips managed to sweep me off my feet.her perfect little lips.

dont tell me i'll make it on my own sarah, dont.you know my heart is open,open for a fight. a fight with my tears that cant stop running. oh understand, im not the only one for you, but your the only one for me. i want to listen to u breathing.while i still am. i know i'll do better with you.im not the best without you.

stay close, dont go!

The Best Revenge Is Living Well

I'm trying to get over him. I will.

*sighs* Who am i kidding? I still got him stuck in there! The more i hate him for what he did, the more i feel like wanting him back. Yeahh people ask me how i am and all. and i'll say im fine and im moving on and crap. But it still hurts inside, people. u cant expect me to get over an ex-boyfriend in 3 days now can you? I mean, it took 6 months the other time. but now its even worst. i love him evermore.

Sheessh! Schools almost over. Lets see, 4 more days to see Sarah? Yeah huh pretty much. AUWH DAMN! 4 FCKIN DAYS! well thats not much days now innit. Shit im gonna miss her bad. and now, with the condition of my unstable emotion, things are gonna get worst.

Dear Greg,
me and my ex boyfriend are in the same school. He's only nextdoor. I have to see him everyday. I'll be damned if i don't look my best. And let him know what he's missing out on. But what kills me is he doesn't even seem to care. I mean, he left me just like that without even giving me a F#*king reason. And it hurts to know that something so strong, is making me this weak. i cant get over him. What do i do Greg? I need help.
- Kherpala Tong Chai

Dear strong but weak,
what you need to do now is, prove to him that he's missing out on something good. Imma give u one sentence, all u need to do is stand by it. THE BEST REVENGE IS LIVING WELL. and tell him that loosing something strong like you, will make him as weak as an ass. ;) cheers.


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