Then I Realised..

Trials is overrrr.wohoooooo! :D


tapi baru trialsja. tak PMR lg. damn.
i've got so much more to revise. and PMR is just like, 2 months from now. i really need to start working my ass off.

I just realised that i sucked my trials. it was shit. i didnt know anything. "yang ni kot jawapan dia."
"errrr, maybe this one. eh tak tak tak mungkin"

ERRRGGGHHHH. MUST STUDY EZA! MUST STUDY!


i need to prove to everyone that i actually can do it. i can if i try. ni effort pon tadak nak redha apa kejadahnya.

Kugan keeps on saying that im not gonna straight a's bla bla, thanks for boosting up my confidence kugan *rolls eyes*

bulan puasa ni, kena studyyyyy. kena rajen sikit. bulan puasa kan bulan paling mulia dan penghulu bagi segala bulan sepanjang tahun(soalan pmr ni)
haha. so i gotta start working mannn. PMR PMR PMR :D




p/s: happy bdae kak jum! we celebrated yesterday. me,atirah,azdi n atilia waited for her to come back. tunggu la kat toilet tu (tak plan pon kata nk tunggu dia. tiba2 nampak keta dia mai). semua serbu keta diaaa "HAPPY BDAE TO U,HAPPY BDAE TO U, HAPPY BDAE TO CKG JUM,HAPPY BDAE TO U" hehe, best kan best kan. then nad,fathin n amira n the whole form 3 block p nyanyi utk dia from our block boleh dgq smpai bilik guru. sweeeet kan kami ni. :D haha staiii. again happy bdae ckg, i pray for u n all ur happiness(bg la markah lebih sket utk trials) :D

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Regret Never Comes Along With Guilt

Remorse.

I didnt mean to do this to you. I never thought you'd take it so seriously. I love you and you know it. But to me reality is never sweet. Im sorry and i really mean this. I didnt want to it, but i had to so you can see it.

How am i supposed to react to this situation?

your my best friend and i hope you understand. This situation im in doesnt seem to stand. Me and him are more than friends. And reality bites, thats the end.

I feel guilty for doing this to you. Regret comes in once in a while to add more into. I wish you could see what i really feel. My days here are not long enough, so please stand near.


bukan aku sengaja melakukan ini, tapi aku terpaksa. bukan aku mahu, tapi aku tak mampu. :( im sorry dear love. i had to be the devil. i had to think of my own self.

entah, masih ada lagi perasaan begitu terhadapnya. begini cara aku melupakan dia. bukan aku memperalatkan dia. cuma untuk kebaikan aku, kau jadi mangsa.

Mengapa begitu kejam dunia ini?

percayalah, aku langsung tiada niat untuk menyakitkan kamu. Aku juga rasa bersalah. Aku rasa seperti diriku ini manusia paling keji di dunia ini. Mengapa? Mengapa begitu susah untuk aku kenal pasti sama ada kau benar menerima keadaan ini. Atau hanya tugas kau sebagai seorang teman untuk menerimanya.

Is this an obligation for you to accept this? I cant tell. Yes, your lips say your fine. But i never know whats in your heart.

So The Vampire Loved The Lamb

Last night..

1.45 A.M. 7th August 2009.
another date to remember :D

Lately This Feeling

This feeling i have inside me. My hands shaking and my knees numb. Sometimes makes me wanna cry.

Somethings wrong with me. It hurts sometimes. Throbbing at the end of my fingers. Through classes. I cant hold on to my pen. I drop it sometimes. Tears start pouring down. Why is this happening. Whats wrong with me. I try to pick up my pen. My hands are too shaky, i loose it again. Whats causing this to happen.


Im not laughing. I try to hide it from everyone. I try to smile. Theres a part of my heart saying i should let it go. My mind says i should keep it together.

Death Is Breathing Down My Neck.

I feel weak. Emotionless. Horrid. Heartbroken of course. I dont think im over him yet. I thought that this will all me in my past. But i saw that night. I couldnt stop myself. My heart was beating faster. He looked at me. Faster and faster it went. Why is this happening? Why?

The picture. He still keeps it with him. Why? I thought its all over.

In The Name Of A Great Filmmaker

Dear Yasmin Ahmad,

your the storyteller of the nation. your films touch my soul deeply and forever shall i keep them with me.

your films were the only malaysian films i could accept. because they tell the true tales of malaysia.

there will never be a replacement for you. as you are the only one to ever tell these tales of truth.

your films shall be a legacy and a story i shall tell my children of. thank you yasmin ahmad, for creating such films that opened my heart.


truly,
a fan of yours :D