Now I Understand

Special For The One I Love, Amin Ajmal. :)

Your just like a star in the sky,
Your like a drug to my pain,
Your like a song in my heart,
Your like the strings on my guitar.

I love the way you laugh on a joke,
I love the way u smile to for me to see,
I love the way you push your glasses,
I love the way you try to please me.

Let me hold you for one time,
Let me touch you before i die,
Let me look into your eyes,
Let me listen to your broken voice.

The sun sets again,
And your name is calling,
Come and shed some light on my darkest nights,
I love you and I trust you.

I've never felt more in love with any other man but you, no words can express how deep it is. I feel secure when im around you, and i feel closer everytime i see you. I love you Amin, i really do. :)

Wondergirls!! Thanks To Atirah Gay ;)

Special thanks to Atirah Gay kerana telah memperkenalkan group ini pada aku. Mereka Wonder Girls ! They are the bestest korean group i've seen. I've fallen in love with them. Thanks Atirah kerana hang lah aku jadi gila kat depa. hahahha ;)


ni video first yang membuatkan aku jatuh cinta pada Wonder Girls ! The song's called Nobody , and is the bestest dance routine ever. *ya,aku dah hafal dance ni* hahahaha.



Sunye, AKU PUNYA OKE! i've fallen in love with her. Her voice, Her looks, and of course her oh so to die for body. ;) Nak jumpa sangat sangat sangat. gila babi gila aku kat dia ni. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SUNYE! I LOVE YOU! ;)) hehhe.

It Hurts To Hate You, I Love You

You'd always ask me,
how come you never say I love you?
do you really love me?

But you know,
I wanted something more sweeter,
I want to confess to you just like those lovers from movies, so that you wont forget

Ive waited for the white snow
Ill confess to you now, the words Ive held back

I love you
your smile brighter than the sunset
your two hands that embraced me
I love you, I love you

I promise that I will never leave you
I will always tell it to you face-to-face

You ask me whats to hesitate about,
is it that hard?
I want to hear what you got to say

But you know,
I wanted something more special,
I want a special day I can always remember, so that it wont pass forgotten

I dont want to separate with you
not even a single moment
when I lean on you, I hope the time will stop
I love you

I love you, I love you
loving you, loving you
I love you


im sorry i did it, but i was too much in love with you, i love you, and damn me for being it, i love you, and forever shall i hold to it.

Ya Allah, Bantulah Mereka.

Ya Allah, bantulah mereka ini. Hamba-hambaMu yang tidak berdosa. Selamatkanlah mereka dari segala keganasan dan kejahatan. Tingkatkanlah kesabaran mereka. Ya Allah Ya Tuhan, ramaikanlah pejuang-pejuang Islam, selamatkanlah masjid yang dibina Rasulullah itu. Hentikanlah keganasan ini Ya Allah. Hentikanlah pembunuhan kanak-kanak dan wanita yang sedang diseksa ini. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

And Without Nothing More...

7.48 p.m, right after praying maghrib, then came a msg from azdi.

first msg
"Eza, hot news 4 u!"

second msg
"Azdi.bgtau eza aku nk cpl blik ngn dia.tp aku tk buley msg dia skang.sbb ada skupang ja g.haha.okey.bubye. ;)"

first reply
"WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

third msg
"awat? tak suka ka?"

second reply
"SUKA LAAA! gila bapak tekejut la!"

fourth msg
"hahahaha.aku forward ja msg yg dia bagi kat aku. aku tak tambah apa2.cuba hang call or msg dia tgk"

third reply
"kalau call dia takkan agkt.aku tau dia.urm.aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!fuck xcaya bai!"

mcm tu lah lebih kurang.

Alhamdulillah, tak sia2 aku berdoa mintak pada Allah untuk bukakan pintu hatinya. 4 bulan aku tunggu, dapat juga hasilnya. Ya Allah, terima kasih kerana menenemukan aku dgn dia. ;)

Amin,
thank you.
i love you.
;)

We Never Said What Was More

you caught my eyes when you walked out of that room.
i couldnt tell if this was something or nothing,
but at that time it didnt matter anyway.

i couldnt stand to be away from u anymore.
u never said oh,
we said never what was more.

how could u do this?
how could you do this to me?
these nights are getting stronger,
your eyes are getting darker,
how can u say this after all that we've been through.

amin i love you.
i cant forget you.
how could you do this.
how could you leave me like this.

amin i miss you.
and i cant stand to see you.
see you be away from me.

When She Sleeps Alone

When one wants to move on, but keeps running back, what is he to do?

He wants to forget her. But he cant. He wants to hold her again. He's like a puppet. Following everyone else. He wants to love her, but the others, the others just despise the thought. He wants to touch her skin again. His friends say forget her, he wants to but he cant. He knows she's no good for him, but he knows he's the best. Everything she's asked him to do, he's done. He once wanted to give up on life, but he used her as a stepping stone, not that he meant to, but he had to.She was his savior. She was his life. His world revolved around her.

Others were waiting for him, others claimed they loved him more than anyone else. But it was he, he was too much in love with her to go to someone else. He was too much into her to even look at anyone else. He remembered the time she laid on his lap, oh how he wanted more. In his mind all he could think of was the smooth touch of her skin. Her hair, and her eyes. He couldn't forget her smile. That sweet smile. The smile that made him fall for her. Every single time he saw her he felt like shouting his hearts out and telling her how much he loves her.

But God forbid, he knew it would never happen. He shouldnt have put his hopes up too high. He only has a few months more to live. He wants to let go of his life. He wants to lay rest asleep. He wants her to be happy with someone else, he knew they would never be together. Everytime she touched his hand, his heart would start beating faster. It couldnt stop running. Faster, faster, faster. Blood started pumping to his heart. Faster, faster, faster. He would slowly calm down.

He always had his poker face on. In front of everybody, including her. Whenever he felt hurt by her, she would never want her to know. She was too fragile.

And everytime she sleeps alone, he would always,always want to acompany her. Be by her side. And hope to die,die right there beside her. Feeling her heartbeat, as his slowly, starts to stop....