Why Now?

why now after everything was going so well?
why now after everything you said i took into heart?
why now when i thought we could have a future?
why now after 3 years?
why now when i love you?
why now when you love me too?
why now when everything seems to be just perfect for us?


i never knew you could be this harsh. i thought you loved me, i was never right i suppose. i love you from the very bottom of my heart. i thought i could trust you to keep my heart. i thought i could depend on through my solemn nights. i thought you were the one. i thought we were it. why? why now?

Because You Suck

HAHA YOU LOOK FAT! YOU LOOK FAT!

HAHA YOU LOOK UGLY! YOU LOOK LIKE SHIT!

HAHA I SO HATE YOU NOW! YOU ARE SO MISSING OUT!

Parasites

I think its a new growth,
a new addiction,
a new parasite.

Maybe not a parasite,
maybe more of a passion,
yes a new passion.

We won states. YES WE WON STATES.

thanks kugan,patricia,adrian and syamel for believing in me. i love you guys for the rest of life

Anticipation

i dont like this feeling.
i dont like this feeling and the way its making me feel.
i dont like this feeling and the way its making me feel towards distress.

i feel like a creep,
a useless creep,
i want to feel special,
but i dont belong anywhere near them.

i want this pressure to stop pressuring me.
i want this feeling to stop making me feel this way.

i know im not what you wanted me to be.
but blame yourself,
you made me this way.
i could change myself,
but its hard.

i know im not the best,
im trying.
im trying to make you proud of me.
im trying to make other people proud of me,
not because of you,
not because of your name,
not because of your title,
or your post.

what the hell am i doing.

i cant lie to myself.
i dont like it at all.
im just trying to satisfy you.
but i just want to be me

yes it happened

4 months,exactly 4 months ;)

well minus the break up, its been 3 years,exactly 3 years.

i love you ajmal. thanks for being there for me. ;)

Could I Care Less

and so the story goes. BLA BLA BLA. the hell? do i look like i care? excuse me little muffins, i've got a better life now,so thanks for moving ;)

i've got better things to do, than go all gugu gaga over you

and please dont interfere little one,u dont know what i have to go through, so dont act like u know everything abt me,u dont.

betrayed,lied to,ripped of, and backstabbed. showed me what life is. Thanks God for showing me the real her. ALHAMDULILLAH. ;)

and yes to you it might not be your fault. but the coin has two different sides my dear. never the same. nothing i said was never good enough, and everything u did was any better. ;)

The Reality Of The Situation

As i was strolling through my myspace, i came across a bulletin posted by a friend. I was caught by the title Indonesians, Perhaps? As i was reading along, this popped up, http://www.myspace.com/pasukanantimalingsia.



Now, from my point of view as a Malaysian, this is heartbreaking. The Indonesians come to our country,wether legally or illegally, to look for a descent job.



And what really confuses me is that these people are pissed off basically because Malaysians call them "INDON". They come to our country, causing havocs and chaos, and yet the government still alows them to stay here. I dont know if Malaysians have caused as much havoc over there as much as they have over here,but rasionally, is this what Malaysia gets for giving your people job vacancies and such.

Now to the reality of the situation, what if, Malaysia rejects Indonesians to stay here. Would they be living a high life as they are now? I thought that Malaysia and Indonesia were working together. I guess i thought wrong.

Even by the posts on their myspace, discriminating the one and only country i love, doenst mean i am Anti-Indonesia. I do not step on your flag. I do no burn it either. I do not make a myspace account on how we should be Anti-Indo. As adults, mature adults, cant this be settled in a proper manner? cant this be solved in a humane way.

Im only 15, and eventhough i do not know properly how to, at least the adults should. I dont have enough authority or rights to go againts your country. I do not humiliate you nor do I despise of you. But you have caused riots.

I am sorry if anyone is hurt by the posting of this blog, i just feel that some of the adults should act wisely and more mature, in a proper manner. Not by naming names, and vulgar words.

Thank You,
A Malaysian


ONE MALAYSIA